And secondly there is so much fucking cruel and awful shit that I have told myself over the years that I would never in a million years tell enemies of mine and there has to be something fucked up with that.
There are so many people in my life that I have tried to keep in my life that seem to truly not have any interest in being apart of it, and i have no idea why I base my self value off of these people. I’m tired of being a monkey dancing around in circles to make people still aware that I exist. It’s fucking dumb. I’m fucking dumb.